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i havent written in this thing in almost well.....a very long time.....so i just felt like writing in it......great.
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[25 Aug 2005|02:17am] |
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so today my grandfather had a massive stroke.......... just kidding.......... but my brother did get mad at him and smack him across the face with a big pillow because my grandfather would not let him use the footrest as a grinding rail for his skateboarding shit..... which my brother doesnt even do with a skate board....... he pretends is pillow is a skateboard................ so anyways yeah................. i have been stuck in the basement, feeling like im in the 60s for the past 3 days straihgt doing nothing but thinking and writing.................. i miss sam terribly..................... so anyways yeah............. i had fish for dinner.................. wasnt good............. i told my gradnma it was.............. but it wasnt............. but the spicy frecnhfries were..................... and yeah.................... i dont know...................... what else happened......... hm..................i am stuck here for the next day and a half................. and then i have a gig friday in barnstead which im getting paid 150 bucks................ hookers baby yea............ jay kay................. im to cheap........................ but yeah................ this basement is wicked cool though............... i like it here.............................. i havent shaved in like 4 days so i look wicked scruffy like a maturing boy who's trying to grow a beard if its the last thing he does................ wait............. thats me............. i want to grow a beard more than opera wants the sex................... what the fuck........... sorry im so fucking stupid when im over tired.................. i dont even like opera.............. or thinking about herhaving sex.............. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh............. anyways...................... kate and i have been planning a dance party for while now and this big shindig hasnt happened yet................ i hope it does........... because i want to do the hustle with someone else in perfect sincronization .................... shit........... so goooooood..........................okay well............... thats my update............. thank you to kate for being the only one who is going to read this bye
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so yeah..........i havent updated this thing in sooooo long.......... for those who even read this...... if anybody even knows this exists.........i have a couple newer songs on my purevolume and myspace sites............... the reason why i am updating is because i just commented on an AWESOME artists page....... he's been on my playlist for pretty much a year and i decided to finally try and contact him......... his name is jon...... he is in the park bench rant ...... his stuff is very similar to mine, a little more folky than mine ...... and mostly acoustic........ his stuff is amazing.......... i also have a gig coming up this friday, august 5th.....at centenial park in concord from 6 - 6:45 ............... please please please come come come.......... again.....if there is even one person who reads this................. so anyways............... lately, i have been the happiest in a long long time............. and i intend to stay this way for a long long time .......... i hope.......... because this amazing "someone" is moving .......... to a place called Pennsylvania, if i can even spell that right ................ and its extremely depressing ........... she is leaving in less than a month ................ but she has unlimited and free long distance, so we can talk every day and night as much as we want.....and she has a car so she will be up here with me on every single vacation and all of summer vaca ................. but the second i turn 18, im gone............... im getting to her as fast as i possibly can ............. and im getting out of New England ............... so it maybe one year, if i leave the second i turn 18, or it maybe 2 years, if i wait to graduate high school in New England ..................... i dont know what to do ............. i just want to be with her ............... and for the first time out of everysingle relationship that i've been in, she does too ........ and she doesnt intend to fuck me over like that last lucky 7 ................ her name is sam ........... and the other depressing thing of her moving is that the whole first month of her being down there, we cant talk.......... because her dad and step mom grounded her .....and they make her miserable.......... i wish that i could just kidnap her and hold her and never ever let her leave to PA ............. EVER .................. i hope that i see her tomorrow .............. i hope i hope i hope........................ that is basically everything that is new .............. well..........bye now....................
-taylor
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holly / box of broken shells |
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i want to get out
i want to not be stressed all the time
i want to be calm and graceful
not always on the edge of my seat
but i dont know what i want
i want to be happy
but not blinded by it
i dont want to be scared
i dont want to be sorry
i want to sleep
i want to dream
i want it with you
i want you with it
i dont want to be selfish
i dont want everything given to me
i dont want simpathy
but i want it all
i dont want to think like this anymore
i dont want to want
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i havent reached you on the phone
even though i called
and last weekend was caried out
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[02 Jun 2005|02:57pm] |
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taking back sunday / just like heaven acoustic cover |
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....A CAR STEREO IS SOMEWHERE ALONE, BUT WE ARE RIGHT HERE IN COMPANY...
a slowly dropping sleave
and it's been so long and i won't be again
just with youm because you don't mind
and it is written on my hands
all but one kiss was waiting
anticipated on the lips
a metaphoric run through the rain
sets free us little kids
fallen weaved fingers catch their eyes cm's apart
the fragrence of your crimson beauty's
almost right against my heart
songs are at:
www.purevolume.com/codeinecomely
www.purevolume.com/holly
www.purevolume.com/theworstaddictionmoneycantbuy
www.purevolume.com/stockholm
and to listen to other codeine comely songs you can go to www.purevolume.com/anhourzbetsilence
www.purevolume.com/codeinecomely <<<<<<<< everyone can go here and look at hott pictures
of me and post them all over you bedroom wall................. um.....yeah just kidding sorry...but there are still pictures there hahahahahahaha
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so yes.......... this weekend was pretty much the funnest weekend EVER.....haha........ saying that i dont really do anything anyway but it really was......i hung out with Rose :-) :-) :-) :-) haha ....and brenna......it was great......... i really like rose...... i hope she does too... i think we are hanging out friday which is amazing............ i cant wait!........... she is really fantastic..... and yeah..........:-( her stereo got stolen and i felt horrible!!!!!!! it was trajic..... well........yeah......brenna was really cool too :-)....she bought a bob marley CD......haha....yeah.....and i got sailor shoes....they are pretty awesome..............well...............i dont know know......im just so fucking worried things wont work out for me again with relationships........i always get brutally broken EVRYSINGLE TIME.....and i swore that after lori happened i wouldnt fall for anyone for a long time.......but rose was just to amazing not to fall for..................i just really hope evrything turns our fantastic.....it would make my life..................well......bye now................
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
taylor
....spring's not too late for roses because i just found one in full bloom....
i'm on my back now from your eyes
as the slowly dimming lights
set the scene for flowers to be sewn
to heart shape patterned kites
so keep your eyes on me
so you'll smile me all your teeth
in between the sets and repertoires
we spend sitting in seats
"so i've got a piece of paper for you" 's playing on repeat
and your number's flashing "dial me"
in neon light every.....
second's taking more and more
'cuz i promised you i'd dial
at the 5 tonight so we could spend it
talking for a while
i'm so sorry that i missed
i was late getting back home
'cuz the time it takes for symphonies
is too short on the phone
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im not trying as hard as i did last time for you. #1, because you probably dont feel like i do. #2. because i tried way to hard the last 2 times and it seemed like stalking.............so yeah.......amazing................... you just are amazing to me............... i think you like someone else from your entry.....................
but evrytime i think us me with you. i get happy, because you make me happy, truly happy, and its hard for someone to make me that happy. people can make me smile. but i put on a face. cuz last time that i was sad and shit all the time, i was told to lighten up. yeah. so alright......................... i want you
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i dont know what to say....................................... but i am confused. with myself. well, sorta. i know what i want. i know what i need. but there are moments when i want another thing. but i know its not the same kinda "want" as the other kind. the other kind is the good, honest, true to my heart kind of want. the other kind. the badder kind, isnt like that. its more of a one time, in the moment, fantasizing kind of want. sorry if i just confused the hell out of everyone but whatever. bye. yes i like someone. but its not what i thought was going to happen. i like it though. she's perfect. and im not sure if im gonna tell. you'll just have to find out.............................maybe
www.purevolume.com/codeinecomely
www.purevolume.com/holly
new songs at both of those sites
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Currently Playing
from a basement on the hill
By Elliott Smith
distorted reality is now a necessity to be free
see related
so yes. i still don't know why you keep up the things you do, and it is ironic because you are more now than ever before with me. and yet you still do it when he is around. "we're sorry, we lied to you, he said it was 'mutual'". the song kyle wrote is perfect to describe this situation cuz him and i are going throught the same perdicament with you. it makes me so sad that you do this to me, its just torure. why can't you see that, its not that i don't like you any less becase of this, its just disappointing to me, and to kyle. i think about this everyday and still cant fugure out why. if you have changed your mind (which you probably havent cuz of your profile) thats the only explanation for this, unless its just to make me more miserable. the only cure for this is that i end up liking that other person. she is my only hope to break away from you. except thats what i thought of you. i would rather be miserable and know that you dont feel anything and show me that you dont feel anything by showing nothing, but it is hell for me to be miserable and have you act more atracted that you ever were before (except for during the summer), and i agree with what he said. you two have nothing in common at all, you even dread getting a phone call from him or seeing him in school (from what i heard and have seen).........you say that you are together because he is nice to you. personally i think that is extremely lame. i dont any guy who isnt nice to you. i dont really know any one PERIOD who isnt nice to you, with the exeption of a couple. so even if you did and wanted things to be the way they use to, i know that i would want to so bad, but i dont know if i could let myself because i would just keep thinking about what might happen and i will end up being miserable and where i am right now. now that i look back on being madly in love with kate and saying that i was copletely miserable because she didnt like me,.......i take it all back because that time now seems like a happy time for me. i would rather be as ahppy as i was then than as sad as i am right now, and every time i look at my left rist i think of you. you left your mark. and it wont wash off. it just says your words and it makes me miserable. and i know that im just i lame teenager that overreacts about everything that doesnt go his way. i know that i am melodramatic. i know i know i know, but i cant help it. its just the only way i can act right now cuz i cant act anyway else without lying to everyone and saying that i am truly happy, but i dont fucking care anymore. all i am doing is rambling on and on about this and i am sick of it. i just wish that i could erase all of the memories and make new ones with her and i hope that i can. bye.
your threads you left still are somewhere. I can’t ever forget my dear. I need some way to forget, to make it all just wasted regret. a brick to the head woould so do the trick for all those summer sunny memories. Concussion's my conclusion, makes me terribly naive.
www.myspace.com/codeinecomely
www.myspace.com/stockholm
www.purevolume.com/stockholm
www.purevolume.com/codeinecomely
www.purevolume.com/holly
www.purevolume.com/nakedofaname
www.thesadcafe.com
tomorrow is the gig
see you there
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[14 Dec 2004|04:35pm] |
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straylight run: existentialism on prom night |
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you make it so hard for me to let go..........................why do you do it
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[14 Dec 2004|04:05pm] |
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naked of a name : all songs |
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yeah.............so we have a gig................its december 20th at the sad cafe in plaistow.......... we are opening for model 15...............ITS GOING TO BE SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!! yeah......................... so yeah............i have a new electric song and i scream...............i like it.......................... its at www.purevolume./codeinecomely ............its called jersey rose.......................... yes........................ alrightbye
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Taking Back Sunday: great romances of the 20th century |
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hi.....................this is my firts entry................................um........................ i dont know what the hell to say...............................it would be cool if you al could go to my bands sites.....................
www.purevolume.com/codeinecomely
www.purevolume.com/nakedofaname
www.purevolume.com/holly
www.purevolume.com/stockholm
K BYE!
and banana toast is heaven..................so is cotton candy ice cream.................mmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmm goood
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